So....I QUIT MY JOB!!! Yes tomorrow will be my last scheduled day to work. I am going "supplemental" after tomorrow. Basically I will only be working a little here and there, maybe only twice a month! Just enough to keep my license and skills current. Sorry, if I work with you and haven't told you yet, it has been a long and hard decision for me to make.
Steve and I have always planned for me to stay home with our kids one day. We have always had a four door car, lived in at least a 2 bedroom home, and only made financial decisions that Steve could support on his own without me working. Still, it is a huge change for us and for me, more specifically. I have been in a little bit of shock making this big change, "little bit" would probably be an understatement. I absolutely love my job. I love being a nurse and I even more love being a nurse at Mayo. I love just about everything about it. In fact there is very little I would change; like I would move Mayo to Mesa and be able to be in two places at once. At home with Z and at work with my patients. I love both so much except I love being at home with Z just a little bit more.
The first night I met Norma one of the questions she asked me was whether I would work or stay home as a mom. I answered as we had always planned, "I'll be staying at home with our kids." It's all I ever wanted really and what I have wanted long before I wanted to be a nurse. But life had other plans for me and becoming and working as a nurse has been a dream I never knew I had. One I never knew I would love so much. Working at Mayo has been even better, its an ideal place to work as a nurse. However, it's a season in my life I feel has passed. Now is the season of motherhood for me. It has been a bitter sweet change at times.
So to celebrate my new season I went fabric shopping the other day. I am all stocked up to make Z into the cutest, scariest little pirate for Halloween, I wanted him to be Michael Jackson in Thriller, SteveO said "no way." So it's going to be a pirate. Plus in memory of the stockings my grandma made for her kids and my mom made for us, I bought red felt! I can hardly wait to see the new versions kicked up a notch hanging on my mantel! I will post a pic, I promise!
So with the job, goes the "fun" money I used to provide. Which means goodbye to my monthly massages, my extra gym membership with the pool, my twice a month housekeeper (yes, its true...a little secret I have kept; Julia and crew I will and have already been dearly missing you), and most painfully leaving is my obsession with Banana Republic and Nordstrom. There, its all out there, all my quiet little secrets I have told almost no one! I have felt a little ashamed about all of it but have loved every bit of it.
Dear Z,
I love you very, very much. You are worth every bit of personal sacrifice and comfort I am giving up to be with you full time.
Love,
Your New 24/7 Mommy
XOXO *Kisses to your adorable plump cheeks*
6 comments:
I am so happy for you! That is such an exciting new change. And although the nursing world will miss you dearly, this change will be so fun! I wish I could come see you guys soon. Zadok looks adorable and it looks like you guys are having as much as always. We need to email or call or something. Just catch up on the latest. I miss you! So glad you are doing well. Save your money because next time I'm down there...Watch out Nordstroms! Love you :)
Hooray! I am so excited for you. I am excited to see your new crafts.
Zadok is getting so big!! And congrats on the new change. :)
Oh, Angie-what a huge, emotional year this has been for you and Steve! You are doing the right thing and you will never regret it. New chapter....same advice...keep those expectations low and be good to yourself. Enjoy! Can't wait to see you little pirate all dressed up. Happy Halloween:)
What a tough decision, and what a blessing to have two things you love and are both so satisfying. Not many people even have one! Welcome to wild, wonderful full-time mommyhood. It's a crazy world at home, but you'll be great! Plus to keep one foot in the door of nursing--that is fabulous. Did I ever mention that I am already brainwashing my girls to become nurses? I think it's a fab job, and the perfect balance to motherhood. I am sure your patients will miss your care, but Z will welcome it. Congratulations!
That is so awesome Ang! But probably bitter sweet. I have such a hard time balancing work and momness. It's tricky because with my personality, I think I need a little outside "hobby". So working for me is an escape. Until....it isn't anymore. And I find myself more consumed in work than in being a good mom.
I'm so proud of you! What a hard decision to make. The good thing is you can always go back if you feel like you need to. You are an amazing mom, wife, sister, daughter, nurse and friend! I LOVE YOU!
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