Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Awesome Song/Video


TODAY is the day, one year ago, that I knew that we were to have a baby very soon!

AND guess what else, we have numero dos on its way, courtesy of our new friend Hannah! You guessed it Lindsay, my dear cousin who is probably at this moment holding her own new little package, Lillie.

Wow, today I have been filled with so many thoughts and emotions. The main thing that has been on my mind is Norma and how she is doing. This time last year she was searching faithfully for something I know she hoped she would never find; me and Steve. After knowing her for almost a year now, I can honestly say, she is the bravest person I know. Not only is she brave but so incredibly faithful and obedient to what the Lord asked of her that even know when I think of myself in her situation I wonder if I would have had her strength. It brings me to tears every time I stop and think about what she did for my son. She gave him to me and to Steve; the people in her mind she thought would be the best for her precious baby. That thought still humbles me more than anything ever has.

What a year it has been. Today, and for the past couple of weeks we have been sick at our house with an annoying cold that just doesn't seem to leave. I watched The Family Man today. A 90's movie I think about a successful man who has his dream job and pretty much every worldly good he hoped he would ever have who then wakes up to a wife, two kids, living in the suburbs, and selling tires. By the end of the movie he's back in his original life trying to get back to the life he never dreamed of, the one with his wife and kids.

It reminded me a little of me this last year. So many times I have awoken and thought "How did I get here? Just x number of months ago I was..." So many times I've thought I was working at one of the best hospitals in the world with cancer patients (who I still love), living more comfortably than I ever thought I would, going on business trips with Steve, several vacations a year, my house was almost always clean, my body was in great shape, I had plenty of time for friends and shopping, and sleeping, and pampering myself. I know I sound like a spoiled brat, but it's all true, that was my life. It sounds wonderful and it was in some ways but really it was all something I would have given up in a second for just one baby. I just never knew all those years of wishing I could trade it all in a heartbeat would actually be the way it would happen, almost overnight, two nights to be exact.

A year ago tonight I received a blessing from my brother and my husband and I just knew that we were getting a baby "very soon." Those words "very soon" I heard in my head as clearly as I heard the words, "You are going to marry this guy," when I was holding Steve's hand and we walked onto Temple Square for the first time almost 15 years ago. Very soon was right, we had our baby Bubba just 6 days later.

Today I thought about that trade and although it hasn't been an easy one, I really do have the life of my dreams. Z's spit up on the rug, toys strewn all over the house, drool and remnants of a snotty nose on my sleeve; all of it really is my hearts desire. Funny I know, but that little man makes my heart soar.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Well I did it again....

This New Years Eve we headed over to Jared and Jenny's for all the evenings festivities; games, food, and the Polar Bear Jump!





The big news this year was that Elizabeth was to become the 1st 10-year-old to jump!


See how happy we all are....and some of you call us crazy! Nothing starts off the new year better than a jump in 50 degree water!

It is exhilarating!


See how happy Elizabeth is? She's practically in tears over the joy she knows she is about to experience!



Jared always poses for the camera during the jump. This year he is posing as if he is blowing out the candles on 2009, welcome 2010!


The three original jumpers. They have jumped an amazing 7 years now.



Can't you just see the happiness and joy on my face?


And guess what?
IT WORKED AGAIN!!!